.soft music, and a choice.

the ignorance of people absolutely astonishes me.



i cannot believe what this country has turned into.
all of the ignorance is a backlash.
slowly, people do not want to believe what has happened.
they have been, they are,
doing everything to avoid it, overcome it, & destroy it.

i will be a senator.
i will, i will, i will.



all i do
is work
and take long baths
and sleep
and put scrubs over what i sleep in
and work
and walk home warm
in layers
and take long baths
and sleep.

it's lovelylovely.



baths give me time.
time to write music, lyrics, concepts, even song titles.
tons and tons of song titles.
and
when you are around musical geniuses
people with multiple platinum, gold albums
on their walls.
their studio walls
their living room walls
their kitchen walls
their that-weeks-girlfriend-bedroom
walls.
that's
when it starts to spoil you.
who can take part of one sentence that you say
and turn it into a song that you get sick of on the radio.
goodnessgoodnessgoodnessgoodness gracious
it is the definition of everything that encompasses
inspiration.



i love my job even though it is very, very stressful.
i am the only employee.
i run the front desk, i do the insurance, the check in, the paperwork, the computer database, the billing, the customer service and the physical therapy.
people keep asking if me and my boss, who's 26, are partners.
it's giving me a lot of hope that in the next few years i can adequately start my own business and actually have a platform to know what i am doing successfully.





it's pretty phenominal.
the more you work in medicine
the more you have to help people
the more you have to help people
the more you help yourself
the more you help yourself
the less you care about the superficial
the less you care about the superficial
the more you work
the more you love
the more you do
the less you change
the less focus you have on the
minimal
the less focus you have on the
minimal
the more you


liveliveliveliveliveliveLIVE

i am getting paid to session sing for jordin sparks tomorrow
if she doesn't pick the song up
it's mine.



i worked on the song, the lyrics, the key, the title.
it feels like my baby and i will, totally, go nuts with jealousy and pride when i hear her sing it. i know it's going to sound killer.
and i love the whole process.
i have magda to thank for it.
we worked so hard on the music video and she showed it to just about everybody, and really hooked me up.




but it reminded me that with things like music, if you are good enough (and sometimes even if you aren't), that's really all you need. and the more people you meet, the more people you are going to meet.

i've been quiet about it for too long.
it's happening
and i am excited.



school starts in january.
i opted for mostly online classes, which should make everything much easier.
boss said if i needed to work less hours or less days, just let him know.



i have a lot of faith in myself, and what i can accomplish
because i have and am on my way to accomplishing it.
it's slightly scary but mostly it feels totally fulfilling.





&
of course
my friends are always willing to rescue me
and i


am always willing

( to be rescued )

.




p.s. a patient yesterday asked me
" so what kind of dog do you have? like, a chihuahuah?"

oh man
did i laugh



vicious pitbull attack